6/21/2004

Oh yeah... I'm back from Johor liaos! And I fed myself with lots of good food esp durians... OMG. Did i tell you that my family owns a durian hill? We actually pluck durians just like that for free... Kekeke.

For now, I'm actually practising my singing. Tomorrow I'm going KTV~ with my ex-classmate. I'm singing Liang Jing Ru's songs. Currently at Ru Guo You Yi Tian.

Anyway, i went swimming this morning again. The sun was not strong and there weren't much people to look at. The tanned bodies that turns me on can't make it for their faces... The faces can make it one doesn't have a good figure. boooHooo...

I was quite upset actually. I couldn't concentrate well when I was swimming (that's why I gave myself a discount of 5 laps). Extreme guilt is what I sensed in my mind. I hurt 2 persons in 1 night. I gave a 'game over' sign to my date. I also made a serious decision not to continue with kinky conversations with someone i going to fall in love so deep. I was quite down, and grumpy. It's not a good feeling though. There're some things not nice to be mentioned here. Well, I just keep it in my heart.

*terribly hurt*

I think this wound will take some time to heal. Meanwhile, I seem to be looking lesser at guys, and I'm noticing the gers more. Oh no... What's happening to me again?