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6/25/2004


confused ||| 11:46 AM
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6/23/2004


    wow. I realised lately a lot of people are celebrating their birthdays... Yesterday was JigmeSangye's birthday coffee outing and the attendance was overwhelming! Anyway, today is ColdFlames' birthday.

    I was not feeling very good lately. No guys ogle at me leh. *jealous*
    Well, I don't say it but I think I'm an attention seeker. I love attention from everyone. Looks like everyone is getting sick of me, now I'm trying to settle down with someone stable.

    Probably someone who has got normal looks, not too fat, stable income.
    The problem on age starts to wear out from my brain. I'm starting to think that age doesn't really matter.

confused ||| 11:58 PM
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6/21/2004


    I felt lonely suddenly. maybe I am missing him... he's sleeping now.
    tomorrow's going to be JigmeSangye's birthday. I wanted to get him something but he found out!!! so I think I not going to get him a present le...

    anyway, I sort of missed clubbing. I haven't club for ages... yes! I need a new group of friends who can hang around with me. we can do shopping together, crash the cinemas, sneak into the bars/clubs. apparently, there aint good shows anymore. I realised I had done quite a lot of swimming and my mom is going to put me on swimming-quarantine soon.

    days I'll be free... Wednesday & Friday. it's not too late to book me now ;-)

confused ||| 9:39 PM
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    Oh yeah... I'm back from Johor liaos! And I fed myself with lots of good food esp durians... OMG. Did i tell you that my family owns a durian hill? We actually pluck durians just like that for free... Kekeke.

    For now, I'm actually practising my singing. Tomorrow I'm going KTV~ with my ex-classmate. I'm singing Liang Jing Ru's songs. Currently at Ru Guo You Yi Tian.

    Anyway, i went swimming this morning again. The sun was not strong and there weren't much people to look at. The tanned bodies that turns me on can't make it for their faces... The faces can make it one doesn't have a good figure. boooHooo...

    I was quite upset actually. I couldn't concentrate well when I was swimming (that's why I gave myself a discount of 5 laps). Extreme guilt is what I sensed in my mind. I hurt 2 persons in 1 night. I gave a 'game over' sign to my date. I also made a serious decision not to continue with kinky conversations with someone i going to fall in love so deep. I was quite down, and grumpy. It's not a good feeling though. There're some things not nice to be mentioned here. Well, I just keep it in my heart.

    *terribly hurt*

    I think this wound will take some time to heal. Meanwhile, I seem to be looking lesser at guys, and I'm noticing the gers more. Oh no... What's happening to me again?

confused ||| 3:00 PM
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6/18/2004


    ok... i went out with enduro today (i spelt ur name correctly this time!)

    i did my shopping and the bankbook updating. we watched Day After Tomorrow. it's a sad sad show... i nearly cried man. anyway, we had dinner at fish n co. so sweet. my teriyaki salmon was quite tasty!
    well, we had a hearty chat on chemistry and lots of stuff...

    we did a bit of window shopping before i left for my home. if i no need to go johor tomorrow, i'll most probably go to town to meet the usual gang. haiz... it feels so awkward to reach home first tonight. i'm home alone now.

    i've got myself nivea deodorant. it smells veri nice (the one for men).



    my date has just been cancelled. nvm, enduros called in time!!! then later we going to go Jurong Pt again. do my banking and shopping.



    my schedule for these few days..

    today: i got a date! movies + shopping (Jurong Pt)
    tomorrow: i'm leaving for Johore... dun miss me!
    Sunday Night: rest. i'll be damn shagged. dun disturb me!
    Monday: huh? swim swim again!!! who wanna swim with me?
    Tuesday: gym gym!! den after that dunno do wat leh. maybe date someone out! *hint hint*


6/17/2004


    [Current Song: BSB - How Did I Fall In Love With You]
    This song is sooo smoothing... It's actually the English version of Yuan Fang by S.H.E
    Anyway, I'm quite glad today~ Because I went swimming again. 2nd time in this week.
    I went with SiMpLe LiFe & enduros this time round...
    I swimmed another 20 laps today from 11.30am to 2pm.

    Aiyoyo, after my 20 laps, enduros suggested a tan for me to rest. I K.O. on the hard plastic stretcher... I allowed the sun to bake my body for half an hour, then I jumped into the kids pool to cool myself down... After a while, I climbed myself out and complained that I wanted to go home!~! I didn't know they took my bag and slippers by the stretcher-side. I walked all the way to the spectator-seats to find my belongings... got a number of stares from the poolside. I gave them a stare back, "look what look!" maybe i got fat body, they very interested in fat bodies... I realised my bag is not there. I had to walk back embarrassed-ly. Dunno y, today I behaved like a blur cock. Probably because I've got a teacher swimming with me? Ooopx...

    I got a nice average tan. except for my inner thighs... (haiz)

    Compared to the previous trip, this time round, there are not so many people swimming... =( So I didn't get to see much yandaos. LoL~ Nevertheless, still got one nice-looking one! (Yes!! before we go to the bathroom, he and his gang are probably playing by the kids poolside *blushes*)

    We then go change (and I get to see naked men!) to get out of the place for I'm too tired to continue walking. Putting determination to stay on with my friends, we ate lunch at S11 Clementi~ I was on vegetarian today ma. The guy who served me was a typical ah-beng! if he never dyed his hair, he'll look nice!! Soon enough we walked to the bus interchange to take our transport back... I enjoyed today! ^_^V


6/16/2004


    YaWn... sooo tiring today.
    I was being pulled awake by my mom. She tore off the curtains, turned off the air cons, suffocating me, let the sun shine on me, turn my bed to another direction, vacuumed the room. Finally, I was awaken by her at 10am.

    We went to Jurong Pt at 11am. We had a shopping spree so I bought some stationery and groceries from the Popular Bookstore & the Liberty Market. We were so enthusiastic about shopping that we went to every shoe stall in the whole mall. In the end, we still visited Guardian because she wanted to get a moisturizer for her face (we're going to Penang in next 2 weeks)

    Man... While she was shopping, I didn't get to see a single handsome guy in Jurong Point! I was quite disappointed...

    After then, I fetched an_qi to my house to do some Touch512 recordings (because I'm the advertisement producer ma).

    fuzionz made his way from his house later on and joined us to do a DJing session in my house. My house is transformed into a studio within half an hour. LoL. Three of us had fun hosting, while we eat tidbits and gossipped. Even though I admit we didn't pay attention on doing serious hostings, we really had fun.

    In later evenings, I bathed and ate my dinner in my room (eh... first time in this year)~ We continued to bitch around the system and had pillow fights. My bolster is so hurt now. bOo Hoo...

    At the end of the DJing, we snapped pictures from 9pm onwards for an hour. Tonnes of fun is what we had... It was a happy room-crash!~!



    Oh My GooDneSs... I can't believe my eyes when I looked at my Yahoo! Mail this morning when I was about to sign in... 6MB had been enlarged to 100MB. Yes!! a 100MB Mail Storage by Yahoo! Mail
    I'm so god-damn delighted over this fact man.

    This proved I never failed to chose correctly on which web-mail to use eversince Primary School (1998). Yes this email account has been there for ages... Just that I kept it secretly.


6/15/2004


    is it me or the tee shirt?

    some tee shirts seem not to fit me anymore. i'm suspecting has it got to do with my frequent swimming and gyming.
    it feels especially tight at the arms area...

    it could be the tee shirt shrinking size too...


6/14/2004


    before i step into clementi swimming complex, i got a glance from this swimmer... oh my god. i dunno how to react. i was quite happy yet scared. probably not prepared for him.

    anyway, i went into the complex with a friend. took quite some time in the changing rooms. talking... i was kind of reluctant to remove my clothings. becoz my eyes were scanning around (i guess?). only got 1 or 2 ok-looking one.

    eventually we left for the swim. man, there were sure a number of people in the pool. crowdy...
    as i swim, i noticed there're many people looking. dunno la... felt a bit awkward. i didn't bathe. we left the place hastily becoz my friend doesn't want to bathe in the public showers. haha.

    soon, we ate fried rice at the kopitiam. veri filling indeed. kekeke. i was a bit sick, so i left for my home. while queueing for the bus, there's a guy in front of me. then i follow him to the bus, stayed behind him, lolz. he gave a slight laugh which was cute. realised he was quite ah beng after all becoz his accent sounded like one.

    i reached home soon, sick. =( watched tv, bathed, chat, lie down on my bed.

    i miss him... guess he's at work. =(



    i've been swimming since 2.30pm.
    20 laps... kekeke. i haven't swam so long for a very long time.

    i'm very hungry though.



    for the first time... i'm using Blogger.Com
    i had a 4 year old livejournal account though.
    anyway, this is the first post and i made up my mind to allow aj entries to flow in here so it'll be quite fair to people who wants to know about my life entirely.