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(+)drink, ktv, chat, forum
(-)backstab, gossips
(*)lee hom, randall tan, edison chan, benjamin mckenzie


8/10/2004


confused ||| 9:59 PM
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7/25/2004


    no army boys seems to appear in my life.
    maybe i should change my target to ang mohs.
    hahaha...
    blue eyes, big size, 180-190s, charming, sharp nose, entertaining, mischievious, 18>age<40, curly hair

    how's that? lolz.

confused ||| 5:46 PM
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7/16/2004


    today was quite an enjoyable day (minus off the school)
    i woke up on my bed, behaving like a sloth. after brushing teeth, i sat on the kitchen stool for a while. after minutes, i went back to lie on my bed. suddenly, i felt like on an mtv shooting.
     
    this contributed my lateness to school. yeah, finally i made it to school. but late. haha...
     
    -censors off the schooling part-
     
    lunchtime was over when someone gave me an sms that hinted me to turn off my ringtones. the fact was the lecturer didn't give much of a damn about it, even though my handphone was on the loudest profile. that was quite an embarrassing moment though.
     
    -censors off the schooling part again-
     
    the last hour of school was terrible becoz my contact lenses came out of my eyes, so they were quite distracting though.
     
    after school, i went to canteen 3 to meet KooN ZaI~ hahaha. he got a veri decent haircut... looks more decent now. after doing the neccesary adjustments, we headed down to takashimaya then to PS~ sitting by piazza, very expensive place, we had a lot of chattings and flirtings... most of all, we get to watch some mtvs from the projection screens... still could remember that Sirius was dancing to the milkshake. anyway, bitching and gossipping cannot be ignored in every outing. well, let's omit this content.
     
    when i reach home, i found out my leg got one patch of blister. i think it's because i did too much walking today... =(

confused ||| 11:53 PM
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    hey. sorry for staying up late. i was reading an article... anyway, i caught someone's msn nickname saying "heartache, heartbreak, heartpain". i felt instant guilty.

    i also realised that 3 persons are starting to float away from me... maybe i need a change of a set of friends?

    sorry guys. i really feel guilty for this someone. i can't possibly carry on like that.

    BUT there're deviations too. like army guys... =X

confused ||| 1:33 AM
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7/15/2004


    today it was rated as pg. i tot there'll be terrible violence. no, i was wrong, oc was rated as pg becoz there were gay scenes. someone's dad actually is a gay.

    anyway, i learnt something from the show: alwayz tell the truth. hiding away won't help

    next episode, the female lead is going to take lots of absolut vodka... wooo~~~ my fave vodka is going to appear.



    FYI, i linked a number of you in my blog. they're endur0, 5olitude, and wesley. =D

    today king arthur and brotherhood are out! i wonder anyone wanna go catch brotherhood with me? i'm going to watch king arthur with someone else liaos... hahaha. ;-)

    i only realised today that my handphone bills restart on every 15th. so blur of me. *bleahz*

    today i got a few glares from guys and gals. more than everyday. maybe i was wearing red (veri striking huh?) i could remember the 2 strongest were from 2 gals. they electrocuted my eyes... i nearly couldn't take it. one was at the corridor of Block 2 labs, the other was at the walkway at Main Lecture Theatre 1, towards Canteen 1.

    i checked out my fridae account and it's quite dead. >_<

    yeah!!! tomorrow's friday liao!~! even though i don't like lessons on friday (because the stupid lectures that drag 5 hours in the same room), i'm still looking forward to meeting new people at the coffee outing in the evening. hope i'll get to meet some cute boys. =P

    my saturday is going to be quite havoc too!! i'm goin to ktv with a group of aj frens in the afternoon and will be goin to ktv again with a bunch of str8 frens... think at the end of the day, i'll be sick of ktv. i think i might pop down to pubs after ktv on saturday becoz my good brother wanna drink (ta) me until i K.O.

    sunday is going to be slight slow and steady as i'll be catching king arthur!~!~! heehee... i always enjoyed reading his books and his heroic stories. he's sort of a fan to me since small.



    i wore red tee shirt today. and my class got 4 people wore red. i realised we were not the only 4. a number of campus people wore red today... this is getting really weird. first was black, now is red. hey guys, if you're reading this. i'm wearing turquoise tomorrow. i doubt u guys have turquoise clothing!

    i realised i'm growing hair on the chin. they're sooo painful; trapped inside. in biochemistry, we called it ingrown hair i think. when i had nothing to do, hands were naughty enough to touch those nicks.

    i also realised the recent lectures in the theatres gave me nicks and cuts on my right arm. =( perhaps i'm not used to the lecture theatres yet, keep getting all the wounds from the walls...

    we had practical lessons this morning. the lecturer looked sooo funny! she looks like a white geek! she got perfect fair complexion and she carries an USA accent which i don't really can tolerate. and she's got very geeky specs too! that makes her even more geeky!! the whole experiment took us more than 3 hours~ i never attended such a practical that drags my time... usually we get to go off earlier in time for the practical though. *hmpf*


7/13/2004


    the good news is i'm back on SGBOYX.
    the bad news is deep inside i think i'm still unsure what i really want.

    yesterday i hurt a person who made me cried.
    today i hurt a person who doesn't know how he feels about me.

    well, i'm tired of this game. i just want an army guy. kekeke.
    i'll be waiting...

    before school, i actually got to meet koon at the mrt station... such a coincidence! school for today is exciting for the morning part because i haven't go to the lab for ages! but the afternoon session was quite hectic & boring.
    the 2 hour break later on before my enrichment module starts was even making me more bored. but the latter got better because i met koon again.

    i'm looking forward to meeting everyone on this friday. it's been quite a while since i went for coffee outings.

    another note to suitors out there: please be more clever & think carefully before making any actions. i can be veri evil if i want to. especially when i put studies as my first priority... try to make mi happy when you think i deserve it. you might only win my heart when i'm done. but seriously la, i won't be that sad easily. =D


7/12/2004


    i'd realised drinking is not the only solution to make me feel better. singing does help too.

    i learnt a few new songs... lin fan's yi ge ren shen huo, zhang hui mei's yuan lai ni shen me dou bu xiang yao.

    i m currently singing to lin fan now. =(
    i m starting to get used to my lonely life.
    i m putting myself into lots of tutorials & school stuff, maybe that will help to make me stop thinking of many things.

    i knew what is happening... i m to be blamed. i dunno what exactly i want. i feel totally confused now.

    maybe *aHeM* was right. i should not think and rush into a relationship. i should settle down with my normal life and grow up... wait till i'm older and more matured, i'll be ready for relationships.

    as i m facing a lot of peer pressure. at least 2 thirds of my course population are gers. i get calls on how to get gers mobile and these are trying to make me get back to the str8 way. meanwhile, i m still hesitating which path to take. the str8 or the crooked?


7/09/2004


    i dunno wat i want for my realistic boyfriend/ger fren.
    apparently i found out there are a load of boys who are liking me. and i realised that a ger had been tailing me for lunches...

    i just felt like listing these requirements now. since i'm so bored.

    based on looks: benjamin mckenzie (usa) / randall tan (sg) / edison chen (hk) / lee hom (taiwan)

    perfect boy
    taller than me but dun be 180 [or you'll be tagged as a freak!] (+)
    have a tan like me now!~! dun white white de! (+)
    lean & toned just like randall! i hate beefy guys! (+)
    very caring & understanding (+)
    dun so hairy... average bah! no hair oso will turn me off (+)
    no older than 23 (+)

    perfect boy 2
    $$$ (+)
    extra freedom given (+)
    expensive gifts (+)
    no older than 45 (+)

    perfect boy 3
    yang guang nan hai (+)
    army 6-packed! (+)
    broad shoulders (+)
    not beefy (+)
    tanned! (+)
    army guyz ^_^ (+)
    uniformed jcs ^_^ (+)
    no older than 24 (+)

    perfect boy 4
    ang moh!! (+)
    not so hairy (+)
    perfect blonde (+)
    curly hair (+)
    dimples (+)
    tall! (+)
    slim (+)
    no older than 32 (+)

    perfect ger
    long hair (+)
    nice shampoo smell (+)
    skirts (+)
    dyed hair (+)
    jap jap type (+)
    quiet yet humorous (+)
    caring & understanding (+)

    i think a lot of people will think i'm veri materialistic when i post about perfect boy 2... yes, i did think about it. that was obviously about getting a sugar daddy... i dunno but sometimes i did think that getting a sugar daddy should be quite a good choice becoz money makes the world go round.

    i think a lot of people will think i'm a sarong party guy. but i dunno la. sometimes i have a fetish for ang mohs too... but those veri cute ones. kekeke...

    ahhh... i feel so much better typing all these requirements.

    to tell ya the truth, recently i had dreams about an army guy coming for me, however, he is blur in vision lor. haiz... for the past few days i had been withdrawing myself from the world. waiting for my dear army boy to appear. maybe i think too much. a bit too naive.

    perhaps i should go str8 if the army boy doesn't appear.



    the show is nice... everytime i see this show, it'll help to orientate me back to going back to str8. i dunno whether it's true or not. i dun even know myself wat i want. should i turn str8?